enchantra806

Update!!!!

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 10:48:27 GMT

Well if you have recently looked at my profile you will see that I have ultrasound pictures up. These are the first glances of my soon to be daughter. Her name will be Aethelia Marie Cambern, she is going to be delivered via c-section on January 19, 2009. This also happens to be my father's birthday. So is your head spinning as of yet? I know I haven't been on here since that controlling, manipulative, ass in the shape of a man. Sold all of my stuff, kicked me out and fired me all in one shot.

Here is how everything unfolded, as you have read before jackass decided that I had to get rid of Hutch. Well since Shane and I were still talking and Hutch was technically his puppy as well. I called Shane to see if he could take the boys. Because I could not separate the boys. Shane was able to take the boys for awhile. Well on Shane's birthday I brought both of the boys to where he was. Well the jackass decided right then and there to dump me because I would not tell him that I loved him.

So after being left with no where else to go Shane was able to help me find a place to live. So his roommate and I sat down and set some rules. We talked things over and realized that we wanted to give it one final try.

We have been together ever since, I lost everything that I owned including Grompei my kitty. Due to that jack ass. So I guess I couldn't sing the right songs.

Anyway Shane and I are both going to counseling to deal with our problems. We are both preparing to become parents of a baby girl. Aethelia roughly translated means angel of the stars. Shane has completely changed due to treatments of the illness and many people don't recognize him. We have both gone through some really tough times and I hope that all of our friends will give him a chance to show how much he has changed.

So anyway that is the update on what has been going on.

Marianne

Lost, Lonely and Miserable!

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 09:55:04 GMT

These are the feelings that accurately describe how I am feeling tonight! It's really hard for me to understand exactly where it is coming from. I feel like I am powerless in the control department of my own life. I really don't like it, not one bit. I am living with a wonderful man that treats me very good. I enjoy spending time with him, but I fear he thinks that I want to only be with him. This is not the case, I'm not ready to settle down with just one man any time soon.
Actually I should say at all, I am truly poly and I can't be with just one person. I like the freedom to be with whoever I want and whenever I want. I honestly feel that he wants me to himself. Hmmm. I don't know what to do.

I brought up the fact that I have friends that I enjoy being intimate with and that I am very affectionate towards them. I asked him how he would react to me just passionately kissing another man. He did not seem to even like the question. I don't know what to do if he freaks out on me.

Then today Hutch my huskie has dug up one of the sprinkler hoses and a little of a tree in the back yard. Well I get told that he has to leave, I mean isn't this my house too? I really wish that I had my own place. Then I could do what, who, and whenever I want when I want.

Currently I feel like a caged bird. If I sing the right song then I can fly free for as long as he is okay with it.

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 18:45:58 GMT

You have an animal soul! Arent you lucky! You are very interactive with animals and can understand them even if you dont speak their tongue. The birds arent afraid of you, deer can eat out of your palm, and every dog will roll over for you. As an Animal Soul, you follow your instinct, sometimes making rash decisions, and not thinking properly. If you dont understand something, you reject and push it away, and can get very disastrous when angry. At the same time, youre a very kind person who can make people feel better, and are understanding and compassionate. One of the great things about you is that your rarely jealous, and know that you have to share and help other people if you want to survive this world. You are very loyal and optimistic, and can make it through the toughest times.